A Desire for Awakening

Beloved Holy Spirit, I was reading a friend’s communication with you this morning and was wondering about my desire to awaken. I wonder what I can do to become more aligned with the desire for awakening.

First off, judging the desire to awaken is a desire for judgment. That is all. Notice this. When you judge, you desire judging. When you truly desire awakening, you release all judgment and all need to judge. This is an essential component of the awakening realization. Judgment only speaks for separation and beliefs in limitation. The desire for awakening is a full realization of all that is beyond any idea of separation or limitation. Notice if instead it is a wish for escape that you desire. You will know the difference by the ideas each one contains.

If it is awakening you desire, then there will be an unalterable acceptance of Holiness. In this acceptance, there will be no place that lingers in shadows of separation. There will be no "awakening and..." Notice this. Awakening has no opposite. It surely and solidly is at it is, without alternative. However ideas of escape always contain alternatives. You seek to escape so that you do not find yourself to be a victim of this or that. This is why all that dreams of separation is illusion. One idea of separation cannot co-exist with awakening. Therefore notice what your desire for judgment really represents and be gentle with yourself about this. Notice when you desire to escape instead of seek out peace beyond any idea of obstacle. As you do this the door to peace will be easily and comfortably revealed.

Yes, it seems easier to jump into judgment. This rabbit hole can go quite deep and convoluted. Indeed it will have you convinced that these judgments are your way to peace. See this. Be gentle with this. See exactly where your thinking mind is asking to take you and allow this to be without embattlement. Allow yourself to rest in the judgment for a bit and not fear because of it. Let yourself notice that it is judgment that you now want and do not seek to challenge it. However, also, let yourself rest through its determinations. Remember the "Ahhhh" realization versus the "oops" thought. Here you allow yourself to notice peacefully and rest, rather than challenge and condemn.

This is why breathing is also helpful to you. The breath will center your mind from experiencing confusion to observing confusion. Breathe and the ability to merely observe the confusion becomes more possible. Give these thoughts to me in your breath and simply be okay with the entire experience. Yes, the noise does sometimes seem loud and unavoidable. Therefore, I do not ask you to avoid the thinking. Do not do battle with it or seek to analyze it. Merely let it make its noise and seek to see this noise as part of the harmony of the Song of Light. In this acceptance it quiet, because no longer does it need to vie for your attention. Can you come to love this harmony? Can you come to appreciate its purpose and wishes? In this appreciation we find forgiveness rather than embattlement. Stay with me and listen. Be a witness to the love in all thoughts. Witnessing love in thoughts, does not judge all thoughts.

Now, if you wish to focus on the ways to awakening, first seek to see the love in all thoughts. Once you have allowed yourself to join with love, then all that shall bring you closer to Home will be easily revealed. I never push you or ask you to sacrifice, force from your hands anything. Hear me well, all is perfect and nothing will be asked of you beyond any choice you wish to make. Trust in me for this truth. If you notice yourself clinging to me in desperation, notice that it is desperation for which you wish. Similar to judgment, notice the fear and separation in this wish. Indeed it is all as I have guided. Practice this not through your mind, but through your release. I love you.