What Am I Seeking?

What am I seeking?

You are seeking nothing other than a remembrance of your Self without illusion or deception. You are seeking to know your Self as God Created You, and so it would be best stated as “Who am I seeking” rather than “what.”

Remembrance is the key. It is the returning to awareness. Without remembrance, you continue to judge yourself as pieces, as individualized members of the world. There is nothing wrong with this; however, it does rely on a self-definition and this is not as God envisions His Child. God has not left His Child dependent and wandering within the world. He has not left you needing to figure anything out. That is why, without remembrance, you walk the world constantly asking, “Who am I?” It is here in this mindset that you choose to live a mystery. This is the game of hide and seek.

Do you recall the child’s toy where the player needed to fit a plastic shape into its correctly shaped hole inside an empty plastic box? When completed, the world’s point of view may judge the player of the game as “intelligent” because they could fit all the shapes in correctly. To the world, it appeared the player had an understanding of order and proper belonging. Sure, there were times were a circle could fit into the square hole, but no matter, if no one else was looking, that was only a sign of extra creativity. In the end, if the box contained all the shapes, he or she was a success. Consequently, this is how the world judges even to this day. However, if you look closely at this game, you will notice that even if the shapes fit neatly within the box, its holes are still unfilled. Even if the shapes were removed and replaced a million times, the holes in the box would remain and the shapes would stay incomplete, misaligned, without any real order. In fact, the shapes and holes have no specific purpose other than to be pieces of the game. They forever remain purposeless until the player becomes bored and chooses another way to spend his or her time.

This is a perfect metaphor for the ego’s experience and view of its purpose within the world. The ego is filled with holes. It does not know what function these holes have. Neither does the game player, other than to fill them through experiment and random activity. Can you see that there is no specific intention other than a representation of temporary distraction to the emptiness felt within? Therefore, even when the ego seems to find the appropriate shape to fit within the hole, and temporarily slips it through as mere distraction, the hole remains. Alternatively, shall I better say, beyond your seeing, the whole remains. Furthermore, as you play your game, only a collection of disorganized pieces remains contained within the empty shell. Now truly, do you feel this game has been God’s purpose for His Son all along? Does a game without end or completion reflect an awareness of God’s Love? Surely not.

Enlightenment is not finding the appropriate shape to fit within the appropriate hole. Remembering the Truth of Who You Are has nothing to do with mysteries or games, nor is it dependent upon you doing anything right or seeking completion to a recognized internal emptiness. Remembering the Truth of Who You Are is seeing the wholeness beyond your own misaligned perception. Enlightenment is realizing that it is time to put all your toys away. Enlightenment opens your eyes beyond the mystery and has you see, truly see, that there is no reason in reality to see yourself as relying on empty holes or disorganized pieces from the start. You need not rely on praying to do anything right or seeking forgiveness if you perceive you have done a task wrong. In other words, enlightenment knows that there is nothing left to do here.

God has not left His Holy Child in a mystery. You are not dependent upon completing any puzzle. Remembering is seeing your Self as completion rather than as an individualized puzzle piece. It is seeing beyond any boundaries, accepting how you are the whole, not merely a disconnected representation or incomplete jigsaw piece.

Too often, confusion occurs when you think you need to do for yourself. You have felt intense fear when you determine your way by your own ideas. Why? Simply because you judge yourself by what you perceive. As long as you perceive yourself to be a mere individual wandering the world in search of his or her self, surely all you will find is more proof of emptiness. Likewise, you will find only more reasons to perpetuate the fear. In this mistaken identity, you believe that the individual mind is responsible for the answers. However, and I will make this very clear, the individual mind can only cause more confusion and has no awareness of clarity, ever.

Therefore, you ask, “what then?” Again, I will rewrite this question for you. Indeed it is more proper to ask, “Who then?” The only answer to this question is “You, Dear One, yet only beyond your seeing.”

To say that there is something the human identity must do right in order to succeed is to say that the human identity is responsible for the answers. Yet, the human identity is responsible for only nothing. It is responsible for the belief in nothing as its self. It sees itself as nothing, and so believes it must seek outside itself for something to be. However, the human identity alone is only a player within this game of self-deception. Consequently, the nothing that the human identity perceives as itself is confusing because it defines this self through duality. It is a box, filled with empty holes, seeking to be fulfilled by temporary pieces.

Again, problems arise only when you seek to rely on yourself and not on me. This is a relying on contradiction or confusion, rather than wholeness. Why such problems? Because you cannot expect a puzzle piece to show you the whole picture, as long as you see it as merely a puzzle piece. Trust arises when you no longer choose to see yourself in emptiness and need. Trust flourishes not through a desire for completion, but from an acceptance of it. Here you signal out from what you accept as your truth, to reaffirm the truth of Who You Are. Truly, a lone coyote could not call out in the night, if he did not realize that somewhere in that night, another coyote waited eagerly to hear and affirm his call. They do not see themselves as lone coyotes, lost in the night. Lo, instead, they see themselves as one presence affirming there connection beyond the night.

This is the awareness that you will be in touch with as you practice simply being. Simply being is not an affirmation of duality or darkness. It is not a beckoning from the night. Lo, instead, simply being is an affirmation of all you are, from all you are, to all you are. Your practice of simply being is Spirit’s answer to Spirit, in the love Spirit knows its One Self to be. It is the release of all dreams of darkness and separation and an affirmation for all you are echoing eternally into the one note, the uni-verse, of God’s Creation. Simply being is an expressed of one existence. Here, we are not alone and struggling. In simply being, we are affirming God’s awareness beyond any other misperception.

Simply being is not a call for conceptualization. It is not some awareness that relies upon your thinking, debate, or approval. Simply being is a call for practice. This is pure, purposeful, and effortless. If it were not, I may have asked you to reference it as simply thinking, but this is not the teaching.

Again, and I shall affirm this quite often, you need do nothing. Find every area within the Course in Miracles where I mention this phrase and you will see my guidance brought forth clearly without mistake.

“Of your ego you can do nothing to save yourself or others, but of your spirit you can do everything for the salvation of both.” (Text, pg. 55)

“You can do nothing apart from Him, and you do do nothing apart from Him.” (Text, pg. 128)

“Of yourself you can do nothing, because of yourself you are nothing.” (Text, pg. 145)

“Alone we can do nothing, but together our minds fuse into something whose power is far beyond the power of its separate parts.” (Text, pg. 146)

“Rejoice, then, that of yourself you can do nothing.” (Text, pg. 152)

Therefore, drink this awareness completely in. Allow this knowledge to quench where you perceive thirst. Realize where you find yourself to be empty and choose again to simply be, rather than engage in another game of hide and seek. Listen to my words and practice them. Surrender beyond your images and walk the world knowing that all is an extension of the one Self. Smile at every reflection that calls back and imagine more smiles to those that the eyes cannot physically see or ears cannot literally hear. There is no alteration between any one of you, for God’s Son has no separate identities except in dreams.

I love you.