Beyond Dreams

How much do we find ourselves believing in dreams? And what dreams do we believe in? One thing is certain, all dreams require sleep. I cannot dream unless I have allowed myself to drift into a sleep or at the very least a disconnection with my present reality. Through my spiritual practice, I often wonder what my present reality truly is. Is it true that I am wholly ONLY as God Created me? Can I be that glorious? That perfect? That pure and without any sin or flaw? Can any part of me be that magnificent? Or am I just fooling myself by attempting to believe this.

Last night, I had a dream that I was lounging around with Jeshua. Personally, I don’t know any better way to describe my memory of this dream other than comparing it to how two best friends would lay around on a lazy day talking and sharing in complete awareness of their deep bond. I don’t remember much of our conversations, but do have a slight awareness remaining that I felt myself to be surrounded by a deep supportive and loving presence. I could lay in this presence and wholly be myself without question. In this presence, I was fully accepted and had nothing to hide. I was also completely there, alert and aware of exactly whom I was with and still felt absolutely comfortable. I can’t recall for exactly how long Jeshua and I laid there, because there are other snippets of recollection where we walked together, but I can’t remember to where or for what. I do remember me sharing with Jeshua, “I guess it is most important that I remember that you remember and know and that I do not remember that I do not know.” Or something similar to that, because it still feels slightly foggy and I did wake up soon after these thoughts were shared. Jeshua had no response to this thought other than a deep neutral look of listening to my words, but then again it was soon after that I did awaken from the dream.

Sitting here now, I’m wishing I could go back to this dream and spend more time with Jeshua. I feel especially drawn to the memory of feeling completely at peace, comfortable and welcome in this space of sharing. We were literally like two best friends laying around on a lazy day. We were in complete support of one another without question or concern. I find this part of the dream to be the most attractive.

Personally, I realize, that I couldn’t comfortably lay around, unhindered, with my best friend if I didn’t completely trust him, her or the space we were in. In order to be completely present and comfortable, there would have to be no awareness of fear or judgment. I think of how Holy Spirit originally inspired my learning / teaching to be called “simply being” because this is how I felt in the presence of Jeshua through this dream. If I am to “simply be,” I am to feel no hindrance of anything and hindrances only come from fear or judgment. Therefore, as I lay in this space with Jeshua last night, we were both simply being. Here, he completely trusted and desired only to be fully present, without hindrance, fear or judgment in my company and me the same with him.

Memories of this dream have me question now, “What is reality and what is dream?” If in the dream, I felt fully present and comfortable, but in this physical reality, I feel hindered, maybe the dream is reality and the physical reality is the dream. The Course in Miracles alludes to this teaching several times, asking us to release ourselves from every belief and value we hold to be willing to embrace another way of seeing. This other way of seeing is one outside of our judgments, fears, and hindrances. It is a vision where complete comfort and peace reign true as reality. Yet in order for us to accept this reality, we first have to be willing to let go of our dreams. According to the Course, these dreams – our dreams – are all the thoughts attempting to convince us of a limited world and limited being. These dreams would be our understanding of a separate human existence apart from how God Created Us.

If you think about it logically, why wouldn’t we want to give up an awareness that has us believe we are incomplete in order to accept an awareness where only completion and perfect comfort is possible. The only reason we do not give these thoughts up is that currently it seems that we have more evidence for the limited than the unlimited, and so we cling to our beliefs rather than release to a recognition that knows more than we ever could. This is why the one statement I remember from the perceived dream is the calling to remember that I do not know and that only Jeshua does. The more I allow myself to remember this fact, the more I am allowing myself to embrace a thinking outside of my own – which currently seems only to focus on its dream beliefs of limitation, judgment and fear.

Holy Spirit recently taught me that doubt requires a belief in two conditions. It is literally impossible to have doubt unless you have some sort of split conception of what could be an alternative reality. In fact, the origin of the word doubt means, “to have to choose between two things.” Honestly, what can we doubt in God if we do not first invest in an alternate reality? Therefore, if I am to allow myself to recognize in every moment, that my thinking is the dream and that God’s knowing is the reality, then slowly but surely I will come to simply release all my dreams and surround myself only with a remembrance of reality. Personally, I think this is the goal of enlightenment.

As we accept enlightenment, we are wholly releasing all beliefs in shadows. We do not argue with the shadows nor try to fit them pleasantly within our dream, but instead we simply let them go without any hindrance, fully accepted reality as the only truth. The acceptance of this truth does not require any effort or struggle. As I was laying in the company of Jeshua, I was fully there. There was not alternative and I did not sense of there being any other place that I could be. We were in full attentiveness to one another without doubt.

I see myself going back to this reaffirmation of reality’s qualities several times today. It will be my reminder for accepting clear awareness over dreams. Ironically, I will be doing this by seeking to replace a dream’s awareness with the physical, emotional, or mental presence that the world gives me. However, the bottom line will be the remembrance of how full, complete, and unhindered I felt in Jeshua’s presence, as this is nothing comparable to the world’s experience.

I see myself also desiring to review what thoughts I see myself favoring over God’s awareness of me. Where have I allowed myself to fall asleep to the grandeur that God Created me as? Where have I allowed myself to value these hindrances – these dreams – over God’s knowing? If I am to stay aware of these values, asking each one of them to be given over to Holy Spirit’s knowing, then I will also be seeking to release these dreams for God’s Reality. Thanking for joining with me here in witness to our True Self beyond dreams.