40 Days of Surrender: Days Fourteen through Twenty

Day Fourteen: November 18th, 2007:

Surrender thoughts of judgment.

Day Fifteen: November 19th, 2007:

Today I ask you to surrender all thoughts of discomfort. Seek to notice when thoughts of discomfort come to mind and where you particular appear to be struggling within. This struggle is always part of your own self-judgment. It is where you see yourself directing against your Self. The Self is always in a state of peace. This Self never struggles, never feels lost, frustrated or annoyed. These are all the states of discomfort and they are all reflective of moments where you do not align with your Self. Seek out these thoughts today and ask me to see what judgment has been made in order for them to proceed. Being that we did not fully discuss ideas of judgment yesterday, we will today. Pay attention to my words and I will show you where and how you judge. And this is not just judgment of other’s, but mainly it is judgment of every moment where you see yourself. Often you permit yourself to be led by the moment and not the peace. When I say, led by the moment, I mean led by the circumstance or by the image. These images are all shadows of the ego. These images have no strict substance and are the mists we have often spoken. They are supported by your presumptions, opinions, assumptions, and wishes for seeing separation. You cannot have any of these images without them.

You know I went about my day without putting much work into today’s practice. I allowed myself to be swept up by the events of the day. However, after work I began to have waves of sadness hit me. I could not identify why these waves hit or from where they emanated, but I curled up in a ball beneath my covers allowing them to flush up. After a few hours, you called me to the keyboard and I am astounded with realization from this morning’s writing. I had completely forgotten about what you called me to surrender today. However now I recognize how all is perfect in the stream of Love. You seek to guide me even before I know I need guidance… and honestly, that amazes me.

Do not be concerned with where your thinking mind is or wants to be. That is why I asked you to surrender your discomfort. As I spoke of recently, you spend a great deal of time being lost in your thoughts and it is only in your thoughts that you can be lost. It is impossible to be truly lost. It is impossible for the Holy Son not to completely know the Truth of Who He Is. There is always a remembrance and in this remembrance, you will find me. Turn to me whenever you feel lost and afraid. Turn to me when the waves of discomfort appear to wash over you. Yes, this will take discipline, but do not worry… you will learn with a greater ease the more you choose to stay focused. Remember most of all that you cannot fail. You are as God Created You and no matter how many of these waves pass over, you cannot be passed over. You cannot be lost or forgotten in the Truth. I love you.

Day Sixteen: November 20th, 2007

Seek to release all ideas of resistance today. Seek to see where your mind clings and struggles. It is in these areas of effort that resistance is taking place. As I have already pointed out, you defend what you value. Likewise, you resist when you feel a need to defend. The wish to defend can always be interpreted as a fear of loss. Here you fear rather than rest. What is it that you fear? It could be a loss of control or individuality. Or it could be a fear of reliance upon your mind or own perceived self. These fears will keep you from resting into peace and relying on my guidance to lead you. It will be a push and shove process that will only take us nowhere.

Day Seventeen: November 21st, 2007

Surrender the ideas of definition and purpose today. Attempt not to force or presume an explanation upon anything today. Give all explanations and definitions to me. Accept that I know the purpose for all thoughts, feelings, and circumstances. I will lead the way for all things. Here we practice trust. Accept that it is not with the mind that we choose to see. Rest your thinking and give all needs for knowing to me. If you catch your mind attempting to presume a purpose or definition for an event today, breathe and redirect the thought to my awareness. If you desire say, “it is only with the awareness of Holy Spirit that this can be seen truly.” Notice if you feel a discomfort, because there remains a significant part of the thinking mind that wishes to be in control. This mind wishes to rely on no one else, and seeks to know only through its own rules, guidance and determinations. Notice this mind’s presence today. Observe its frustrations and confusions with the call to release. Remember that I am indeed with you and your are not being left comfortless. You are not a victim of insecure whim or nothingness, but I ask you to observe today how every experience and thought has a greater purpose beyond your own mind’s perceived limitations. Try not to think too much, but give these thoughts to me. Allow these thoughts to be a communication with me, rather than a grasping for straws. I will guide you. You are not alone. I love you.

Day Eighteen: November 22nd, 2007

Surrender your mind today to good will. Gratitude and thankfulness radiate the intention of Good Will. Here, in gratitude, we rest in the praising grace of God’s Will. This Will knows its Self in Truth and sees only all as One. Here you settle in peace, in your Oneness of Truth. To know your Self is to rest in God’s Will. It is to acknowledge and accept the peace and freedom You are. If you are to surrender to good will today, you are choosing to rest in this knowing of your Self. Here the mind rests beyond its thoughts and asks only to come together in awareness of God’s knowing. How can you praise from your self? Release. Release the needs to see from a mind of confusion or individualized intention. Stop trying to figure this all out on your own. That attempt to figure it all out is a struggle, and you can only struggle from a mind set against its Self. I have told you before that you will not find yourself in your mind, but in the release of all thinking. This is the release of all struggle. Trust in me to guide you. See me offer up my hand to guide you. Vigilance and determination is not a call for you to try harder, it is a call to rest. It is a call to see through the Spiritual eye of wakefulness and this beyond all thoughts and struggle. If you concern yourself so much with the purpose of all actions within the world, you do not rest with me. Here you are still trying to figure it out on your own. Only the thinking mind seeks to plan and understand in worldly limitations. However the truth that is You is not made of a world of limitations and needs not a single thing. Again, I do not ask you to chastise yourself for your thinking, but I ask you to notice its components and where these wishes lead you. What thoughts or feelings do they encourage? If they are not pleasing ones, resting ones, faithful and praising ones, surely they are not of Truth. Simply see. Yes, simply see. See your Self as One Existence and choose to have this as your guide. I will never leave you comfortless. And never has it been upon your mind that you have been entrusted. Accept this One Self to be your Self. This is a resting of great knowing. Trust and see me here. I love you.

Day Nineteen: November 23, 2007

Holy Spirit, I’m not really certain of my faith today. I awoke with many thoughts of confusion on my mind. I can definitely admit that I feel far from dedicated to this path. In fact, I’m not even exactly sure today why I am on this path. I see the world going by me, people doing their own things, and although I don’t feel it is bad despite my desire to see differently, I just don’t see this path 100% purposeful. I guess I’m not seeing the results, and so my mind wonders what this is all for.

But yet, in your lack of certainty and faith you do choose to come to me. This is an act of certainty and faith. Do not discount this. Yes, you are not seeing the results that your mind hopes to see. In fact, you feel as if the entire world is passing you by and that you are not a part of it at all. You are feeling left out, but also unattached. This comes from the curiousness of your mind that is looking to find itself. The mind of confusion (the struggling self) is always seeking to define itself. For the most part, this mind seeks to define itself through the world’s activities. Since you do not attach yourself as much to the world’s activities, the struggling self that you see as yourself does not know where to look for itself and therefore feels a bit more alone or out of purpose.

Hmm. Yes, I can see this. I see myself analyzing the world, trying to figure out what will work for me or what I can find within the world to help me be more at ease. I observe other’s actions, values and desires wondering why I don’t feel as attracted to these same experiences. I wonder if I do fit in within the world and if I can actually function satisfactorily within the world if I don’t fit in or follow along in similar ways as others. So what to do I do? Where do I find myself?

You will find yourself within. But you have to fully dedicate yourself to this awareness. Now it seems you are in a limbo of spiritual awareness. You see a connection but cannot completely figure out how to achieve complete connection with it. You are seeking to understand it before you can experience it. You hold yourself back for full participation. This limbo is self-made. To the ego it is a land of safety. Here you can attempt to play out within the world, without sacrificing much ego-ideals, but also you can gain a taste of peace. However, if you do notice, gaining a taste of peace is neither completely helpful nor peaceful. You still seem to see your Self on a distant horizon and you squint attempting to make out the vision of your Truth. Again, you are not going to figure this all out within your mind. You are not going to interpret your own Self, but you can choose to release to it. This is easier than you realize.
Truly, your mind clings only because it is unsure. Your lack of certainty is only rooted in your reliance on fear. See this reliance on fear. See how you value these illusions, these judgments, these worldly intents, and you will see why you invest so hardily. I am not asking you to give up what you truly value, but I am asking you to see why you desire to make these values a substitute for the peace I hold out to you.

I don’t know if I really know that. And that seems like more of an invitation for analysis.

Yes, you do know this and no, it is not found through analysis. Rest your mind. Seek within and you will come to be more aware of what you truly do know beyond your mind’s wanderings. Remember I am with you always. Dedicate time today to sit in stillness. Do not make this as much as a part of a routine, but a desire to open yourself up to your Self. Seek not a result in this stillness, but seek only to be still. Read the book I have directed you to read and follow its instructions. You will come to know yourself beyond your thinking. You will. Do not worry. I love you and am with you all ways.

I’m thinking of now all the ways I do not walk the walk exactly. I’m thinking of the things I do as part of this spiritual experience and wonder if they are really necessary.

Do not seek out reasons to criticize or judge yourself. This is never purposeful. I will always lead you to what is most purposeful. And yes, teaching is part of that purpose. But it is not a teaching that you choose with your mind. Instead, give every choice to me and trust that I will lead you to teach all that will help you to learn. Again, seek not to prove what is right or wrong. Seek not to figure it out for yourself. Trust that all will be given you. All will be given you. You need not do this on your own or with your own mind. As long as you believe this you will constantly be confused because you will only be trying to figure it out. You cannot teach yourself from yourself simply because you do not know. Give this desire to know to me and trust that I will always show you what is to be known. I will. Do not compare yourself to others, or expect others to prove you worthy or purposeful. This is not how peace is established. Peace will not be proven to you, peace is you. Accept peace is you and seek not to prove anything any more.

Okay.. okay. I can see it.. you are right.

Breathe and release Dear One. It is all perfect. Still your mind now. I love you.

Day Twenty: November 24th, 2007

I’ve led you to an outline of guidance for your surrender practice. Use this. It will be very helpful to you in clearing your mind. This is the type of practice that will work best for you. Focus as often as you can on its principles and be aware of where your mind is choosing to go, when it chooses to go there. However, have fun with the practice. Do not feel that I intend to force you into anything. Be joyous and allow this joy to guide you through the awareness of Love. This is as I desire for you, a whole-hearted practice of an awareness of love. You are Love. Accept and allow this to flow completely through you now. Hear my calling clearly. Settle your mind and trust. This is the practice you have asked for and so this is the practice as it shall be. I love you.